Just in Case Someone’s Reading…

These last few months since releasing ‘Living Paradox’ haven’t been too kind to me.

To be honest, I don’t think they’ve been kind to anyone.

And when the very foundations of your life are shaken to their core on a daily basis, and you try to cope with worsening existential fears in an unstable country on the brink of civil war, with the very real possibility of not being able to live your life free in your own home, music rarely feels like the first priority.

In the last few months I have been battling with panic attacks, depression, and a complete lack of energy. I am, like many around me, stuck in a waking nightmare that keeps getting worse. I have had some session with a therapist and they did help, but Psychology just doesn’t have a cure for such insane external stressors.

I am still here. I am still trying. I have videos that I want to share and just never found the strength do upload and give them the push they deserve. I know I’ve pretty much lost all momentum, but life is just dramatically different now, and I am not the same.

There is a bright side to this, however. Music is, and has always been, my therapy. It’s my way of processing pain and I need it like I need oxygen.

Whenever I feel overwhelmed with negative emotions, like I feel oh so often nowadays, I just grab my guitar and hit record. More often than not, the pain, the hurt and the fear transform into something beautiful that I can share with the world. I am grateful for it.

And so, much like ‘Living Paradox’ was born out of pain and stress, new music just keeps streaming out of me faster than I have ever seen.

Angry music. Sad music. Painful music. Beautiful music that consoles me when I feel like I can’t take it anymore.

I am, slowly but surely, finding a new voice for myself inside the chaos.

I wish you all a peaceful week.

Jonathan